All poems authored by: William A. Rule (c)
CERTAINTY OF PASSAGE (9/26/95)
It seemed a long time ago
The days were shorter then
The nights were lonely and cold
They still are as a man
I huddle unto myself
For it is there that my trust resides
Within the cocoon of knowledge
That my identity has been assured
By the monumental effort it has taken
To survive this long and far
It has been no simple task
No pleasant undertaking
No preparation for inheritance
No future assured
But a revelation of existence
To find myself here at present
And very much alive
And aware of my integrity
To be who I want to be
And free
It was a certainty
Of a passage
That has made me strong
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OBSTINATE OBJECTION (6/23/96)
I was defiant
fixed in purpose
like a stubborn ass
incapable of reasoning
that forward motion
to an unknown destination
was more eloquent than
obstinate objection
of reality’s intolerable twitches
uncontrollable nuances
like a crap shoot
of the universe
that in my opinion should stop
and make way for the Great I Am
to be allowed to pass through
unscathed in my uniqueness
not allowing myself to feel
that which was the gift
of my humanness
Rebellion I said
against what I’ve forgotten
just make a sharp left
at the first corner
of the straight and narrow
of my destiny
and never feel my freedom
I’ll show them
fuck with me
and I’ll blow my head off
I didn’t need the truth
so I preceded to drown
in pig-headed perceptions
which I embraced
as a lover
who never betrayed my
commitment and obsession
to obstinate objection
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GROWTH (2/27/95)
The tree stands tall
And wide reaching out
Towards the heavens
Arms open in worship
Of the light
That brings it life
Its foundation the Earth
A loving partner
They cling to each other
Its roots bore deep
To absorb the life
Which nature provides
It must be the cedar
For it can not change to oak
It can never be two trees
But one unto itself
For that is where
Its beauty lies
Devoid of leaves
From winters chill
Each year the tree
Must let them go
To fall away
In silent drifts
That they may return
And stronger still
When warming sap
Sprouts buds of green
To bloom
In spring
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QUINTESSENCE (7/22/93)
It has frequently been my experience
That I’d want things to happen too fast
I would think what a dammed inconvenience
And head for the hills in the past
I’d be left all alone with my conscience
And a void in my heart that was vast
I’d petition my God in subservience
And scream out “I need love that will last”
He replied “Son, I know you’re an enthusiast
And you’re inclined to do things half assed,
But on this you must show me obedience
For to find love you must sometimes stand fast.
And especially for you the quintessence
For you deserve all the best long last
But you really must strive to have patience
And your desires will soon come to pass”
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WONDERS (7/29/94)
What wonders life has bestowed me
Could only be God’s gifts
I thank Him for my eyes to see
What makes my spirit lift
To feel the rain
Upon my face
To search stars
For heavens grace
To see my blue
In Jeffery’s eyes
He’s fresh like my
It’s no surprise
To love myself
to see the truth
Be forty-three
And feel my youth
These things are gifts
I need them so
To see some light
My hearts aglow
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LOOK AT ME (10/16/96)
Look at me
What you see
Before you standing
Is a man
With character and integrity
Able to feel and love
All that life
Has to offer
What a gift
I feel so many things
In this heart of mine
Depth which I heretofore
Have denied myself
Mere faint realities
Of my perception
Unsure of the truth
Of what was so apparent
To the young boy
Of my innocence
That has long since
Been trampled on
Almost stifled
By a family of lies
So decievingly masked
That it has taken
Far to many years
To reveal the truth
Look at me
What you see
Before you impassioned
Is this man
Who is allowed to feel
The sorrow of his youth
And lean on it
And accept
That which is
Unchangeable
And live in the present
Look at me
And see me naked
As the wind blows
Around my being
My hair is swept
My face is chilled
Mine eyes are teared
As I look into the wind
And feel the force
Of my fear
I will not look away
I will face my future
Which simply lies ahead
Not allowing the past
To dictate the course
Others have wandered
Some to their doom
Not I
Not this man
Look at me
As I search
For the answers
To unknown questions
That will certainly be asked
As I continue
On a venture
Of self knowledge
That requires this man
To reach for a potential
That exceeds his grasp
And a future that is assured
By faith
Look at me
You will see
A man who is capable
Of anything that will be
Who will never long to be free
As I live each day
With love in my heart
Unafraid of the human truth
About myself
I Look at me
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DREAM OF DAYS TO COME (9/24/95)
This life of mine fulfills the dream
I’ve had since first I cried
I long to go again each night
For it’s there my fears subside
But in my sleep I scare myself
By not fulfilling the life
I’ve been blessed to unfold
My bed is cold
Within my dreams
As I awake each morn
I chase the doubts and fears
That long since held me back please God
I only hope He hears
My prayer this day will bring
The abilities foretold
Within my slumbers bliss
To evade this day’s abyss
Vigilant and reborn
I’m challenged by the suns arise
I scoff at Moloch’s threats
There’s purpose in this heart of mine
In deeds I’ve no regrets
I’ve dreamt this day a thousand times
I’ll live it now unchained
To be this man
I’m worth the stand
In truth no compromise
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